i just turned 45 yesterday.
but i’m wondering where the past thirty years went. everything’s a blur. i can still remember the highlights, though, but i won’t be able to talk about the in-betweens.
i’ve been to places and tried a lot of things. some right, but mostly the wrong stuff. and i’ve hurt a lot of people in the process. i also remember that when i hit forty, i began considering insurance and memorial plans more than the latest places to eat in.
but i’m here now. forty-five years and a day old. i’ll be done paying for my insurance in a couple of months.
for whatever the in-betweens were and for all the highlights and milestones, i thank God Almighty that His hand was and is still upon me.
given the chance to relive the blurred past, will i change anything?
knowing what i know now, YES.
yes, i’ll be more caring, loving, unselfish, frugal, self-less, respectful, responsible, inquisitive, brave, trustworthy and truthful. at this age i guess one gets to see the past better through the eyes of the present. someone said that we have “twenty-twenty vision in hindsight.” was he so right.
i know that i won’t get to relive the past and be all that i want to have been. but there are the tomorrows that, God willing, will add up to many years – an everyday chance to be what i should be, what God wants me to be.
so to the thirty blurred years i misplaced somewhere, let it be so. i’m ready to go beyond the forty-five i’ve lived and start living on to the next thirty, at least.
if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. the old has gone, the new has come.